“Shy Girl” and “The Waterfall”: Original Poetry

Shy Girl

The shy girl smiles.

She ponders and does muse

why when it comes to love

she always seems to lose.

 

The shy girl hopes,

but hopes seem so threadbare;

in a tapestry of love

she finds it quite unfair.

 

The shy girl wishes

that things would change.

She is shy of heart and action,

and she is forlorn for a love exchange.

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English: Waterfall near Lepena, Slovenia Slove...

English: Waterfall near Lepena, Slovenia Slovenščina: Slap, Lepena, Slovenija (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

The Waterfall

Churning.

Rushing.

Swirling.

Flowing.

Tumultuous

waters

flow down

the rocky

craggy

cliffs

seeking freedom.

Seeking peace.

Seeking release

from the chains that bind her.

 

She would cry

if she wasn’t

already water.

Transparent

and flowing

amidst the

beat of the sun

on her body

and the chirping

of the birds

comforting her with their tender song

in the sweet mountain air

that completely envelops her.

Perhaps

the water

are her

many tears

as they flow

free

and with abandon.

 

Tired of trying.

Tired of bondage.

Tired of who she needs to be.

Tired of the expectations.

 

She just longs to be free.

Pure.

Unrestrained by people’s expectations

of who she needs to be.

She wants to just be herself.

A waterfall flowing,

but now with a new calm strength

that is soothed by the warmth

of unconditional acceptance

from the One who watches over her

and loves her

even when she cannot always accept herself

or love herself.

 

Poet’s noteThis poem explores the internal conflict of the poet amidst expectations in the spheres of her family, work, faith, society, and even herself. 

 

***I have more of my poetry on www.poemhunter.com.  Here is a link to my poet page and poems:

http://www.poemhunter.com/julie-a-smith/

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A Shout Out to My Friend Christie!!!

I am attempting to try the QuickPress posting option for the first time as I sit here sipping my Cafe Escapes Milk Chocolate Hot Cocoa with immense enjoyment of the fact that I am off work today. I have a Keurig Elite Brewer, and while I am a HUGE Starbucks fan, I think that $4 or $5 for a drink there is a TAD expensive. Honestly, I like being able to brew my own cappuccinos, cocoas, and the like. Although, I must say, after I got the Keurig, I realized I really do not like coffee that much. It is more the chocolate type drinks that I love, such as mochas and hot cocoas.  I am also a fan of french vanilla and caramel cappuccinos, and one of my all-time favorite drinks is the double chocolate chip frappuchino at Starbucks (too bad I can’t make that myself!)  However, now that my local Wal-Mart carries the Grove Square brand for Keurig K-Kup Brewers, I am a much happier camper. Maybe I should have gotten a Tassimo brewer that brews more speciality drinks, but I got the Keurig Brewer. All is good. Does anyone else out in our blogosphere world have a Keurig (or Tassimo)? What is your favorite drink? Or what is your favorite Starbucks drink, if you are a Starbucks fan like me???

I love my Keurig Brewer!!!

Anyways, yes, SATURDAYS OFF WORK are one of my GREAT PLEASURES in life. After years of working two jobs and often working 6 days a week (and barely being able to get off work for friend weddings), I have such a grateful heart that I work a Monday-Friday job presently. Anyone who has even worked retail or has struggled to get by financially will understand what I am talking about.

So, I have been semi-uninspired of late to write, although I did enter a writing contest which was cool. That was interesting because you had to write a short story based on a photograph found in a specific Flicker pool. That probably was the hardest part for me, because I have never wrote that way before.  I guess I usually am inspired more from my personal life than from random photographs. But it was a good writing exercise and it is good to be writing.  (Writing is a goal for me in 2012, although my book has been on hiatus since I have been blogging and doing other pursuits as of late).

Today, the actual purpose of my post, which of course I am just getting to now, is that I want to give a SHOUT OUT to my friend Christie. She is really amazingly cool, and we have known each other for AGES. Yes, we are both in our seventies. Just kidding! (Side note: although, sometimes I am amazed when I think about how fast life flies by, and I feel it definitely seems to fly faster the older one gets). So, my good friend Christie is totally new to WordPress, and you should check out her first blog posting. I am really excited (actually, I am the one that convinced her to be on Word Press), and I want to get the word out about her blog.  I enjoy promotional communications, and it is always important to be supportive of your friends, you know?

Here is a link to Christie’s blog:
http://lostmyboots.wordpress.com/

I think you will appreciate Christie’s blog if you like Christian thoughts, a quirky sense of humor, and/or writings on life and the speed bumps along the way. She is also a talented singer (and plays guitar, as well), and her brother is producing off-beat films after graduating from film school in California.

Happy Saturday everybody!!!

Things and People Who I am Thankful for

Inspired by David Kanigan, I also decided to write a post about things and people who I am thankful for.  If you are not familiar with David Kanigan, check out his Thankful post.  I follow him, and he is always very inspiring and positive, plus he also regularly has interesting charts and cute +/or funny photos in his posts (re:  http://davidkanigan.com/2012/04/15/thankful-sunday/).

Without further ado, here are the Things and People Who I am Thankful for:

1. God.

2. Nature- our Creation is so beautiful, and I am a particular fan of the sky, ocean, beaches, sunsets, and the moon and stars.

Sunset at Ocean Beach in San Francisco. The im...

Sunset at Ocean Beach in San Francisco. The image was taken at negative low tide that happens just a few times per year. One could see how far away the ocean went back exposing the bottom. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

3. My family.  I love being from a HUGE extended family.  Also, being an Aunt of my niece and nephew adds a special joy to my life.  I love being a twin, also.

4. I am thankful for my brother Kevin’s new job.  He was doing some freelance writing and finding it challenging to break into a more steady job since he graduated from college.  The economy is still weaker than I think we all would appreciate, but honestly, I am so grateful for Kevin’s new job (IN HIS FIELD) at a newspaper.

5.  I am thankful for WordPress.

6. Taco Bell. And Starbucks. LOL.

Taco Bell

Taco Bell (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

7. Redbox free promo code that they sent me by text today.

8.  I am thankful for my friend, Amber.  She fixed a maintenance issue in my apartment that was incredibly frustrating, and it was stretching out into almost a week.  I shouldn’t have to beg for maintenance, and I think I disagree with my landlord about what constitutes a maintenance priority (or border-line emergency).  So, kudos to my friend Amber.

9. Music.  Sometimes when I am riding in the car with friends and family, and they are driving without music, then I ask them to turn on the radio.  Seriously, I can’t imagine a world without music- it would be a dull world, indeed.  Music brings color to life.

10. Art.

11. I am thankful that my work blessed all of our front office staff this past Friday by giving us the afternoon off to go celebrate Office Support Professional Day a bit early.  I went to a nice restaurant that I normally could not afford (they donated money for us!), and we saw a movie.  I got popcorn, too (movie theatre popcorn is the best).  Also,  THREE of our Deans in the academic program where I work even volunteered to cover the front desk, so we could be off.  Is that cool, or what?

12. I am thankful for the new building for my church.  Last year, right before Thanksgiving, my church caught on fire.  Actually, the investigators said the fire appeared to be arson.  It was a horrible time, and we were displaced for about the last four months and meeting in a hotel.  We couldn’t have almost any of our normal church activities, and we lost all our of children’s ministry toys and items due to smoke damage due to the fire.  But, the awesome part of the story is that my church recently purchased a building (we had been renting the church building where the fire was and sharing it with another church).  Now, while we often have yellow construction tape at various places in our building and work is still in progress while we meet there, however, it is coming along.  It is a fixer-upper, but the building is our’s.  We even have some pretty flowers planted outside.  It has been a long road, but things are finally looking up.

13. Spring.

14. My new iPhone.  It is really cool.

Leave a comment.  I want to know what are you thankful for???


The Poky Little Puppy and Obedience (a.k.a. a Spiritual Devotion)

The Poky Little Puppy= one of my favorite Little Golden Books as a child

The Poky Little Puppy was one of my favorite Little Golden Books as a child.  I was an avid reader and an animal lover, and somehow I could intrinsically relate to the Poky Little Puppy.  Not that I am a puppy, mind you, just in case you are wondering……although I must point out that the Poky Little Puppy was a bit more adventuresome than I.  He had a perchance for adventure, and an independent spirit.  He liked to do his own thing, too.  However, he was not the most obedient puppy, and was kind of a rule-breaker.  Alright, he WAS a rule breaker. Eventually it caught up to him in the end.  I myself am not a rule breaker.  Some people disregard rules and law, however I am one who has respect for rules, law, and authority.  However, I do think it is important to observe the “spirit of the law” and to not be legalistic…..and there are cases of civil rights or civil disobedience too, but that is not what I am talking about here.

Actually, as I am reflecting on it, and wishing that I knew where my copy of this classic book is, I am thinking that perhaps the Poky Little Puppy was not so much of a rule breaker as an adventurer who did not follow the crowd of his sibling-puppies.  He DID eat all of the dessert that was supposed to be for all of his siblings who got in trouble though, which is not the best sharing atttude and actually kind of gluttonous.  However, I am not one to point the finger at someone with a sweet tooth by any means….desserts are a weakness of mine.  And, I relate to the Poky Little Puppy with his “pokyness.” I am sure that is not a word, but it works for my meaning and point here.  He kind of meandered about, was misunderstood, but yet he knew the

Albert Einstein during a lecture in Vienna in 1921

Image via Wikipedia

adventure he was on even if no one else got it.  I think that is cool.  Life is not always about following the crowd either, and some of the world’s greatest thinkers, like Einstein, may have not always been understood on the road to their adventures and their dreams.  Dreams are important.

In the case of the Poky Little Puppy, I think his adventure was good in many ways, but he chose a course of action that was not good (eating the dessert that was meant to be shared with his siblings),  In that way, I think he was disobedient from what his mother wanted for him.

Obedience and Disobedience is an interesting topic.  Sometimes things are not always black and white, such as life.  The other day I read an interesting devotional thought from a Christian woman who often challenges me by the name of Joyce Meyer.  Her devotion that I read the other day is called “Testing the Motive of the Heart”, which is based on Genesis 22:1-3.  This is the story of when Abraham was asked to sacrifice his only son, Isaac.  That story is hard to understand, and I do not claim to have all the answers or to be a Bible scholar.  However, I do enjoy reading the Bible and often I have things that I observe while reading.  I want to share a few observations and insights that I had while reading this scripture and Joyce’s devotion.

First,  I noticed that God pointedly stressed that Isaac was Abraham’s son and that he loved him when God said for Abraham to sacrifice Isaac.  When God told Abraham to offer Isaac as a burnt offering, that doesn’t really make sense in a lot of ways.  Why would God ask Abraham to kill his own son?  That sounds so outside of the character of God and God’s love.  I personally do not think God would have allowed Abraham to kill Isaac.  This sacrificial situation does make me think of God and God’s son, Jesus.  Many people today doubt that Jesus existed, that Jesus was God’s son, and a plethora of doubts.  I do believe in Jesus, and honestly I believe that He died and was resurrected as a Savior for human-kind.  It is hard to cognitively process how a Father could allow His Son to die in order for a world’s salvation, but I am convinced of this truth no matter if the world tries its best to convince me otherwise.

Another question I have with Abraham and Isaac is this: was what God asked Abraham to do an obedience test? Genesis 22:1 says God tested Abraham, so I think that this is the case.  One fact that stood out to me on the day that Abraham planned to sacrifice Isaac was that Abraham got up EARLY, saddled his donkey, split the wood for the burnt offering, and began the trip to Moriah where God had told him to go.  God didn’t even say to leave early, however Abraham did so.  I can’t imagine rising early when you know the horrible event ahead, as Abraham did.  Personally, I am not an early riser, and leaving early for the most horrific thing one can imagine really hits me over the head.  Abraham was NOT a dawdler, as I myself often am, as well as the Poky Little Puppy (Author’s random side note: dawdling is not always a bad thing).  Abraham was amazingly obedient to God, even though I am sure he did not understand WHY God would ask him to sacrifice his son.  Although it is important to note that in the end Abraham was stopped from sacrificing Isaac by an Angel of God (Genesis 22:11-12) and a ram was provided as a substitute sacrifice.

Finally, I want to close by making a plug for Joyce Meyer.  Many people either really love or really hate her, and honestly I am glad that I gave her a chance.  I find her insightful and earnest, and some of her books have encouraged me when I have been in a darker place or struggling with various issues.  If you are interested in reading a devotion by Joyce Meyer, here is a link to one that I read recently that is thought-provoking and interesting (but note that it is not the devotion that is referenced in this blog).

http://www.joycemeyer.org/articles/ea.aspx?article=how_much_is_too_much